Not what I had planned

6:45am: the alarm goes off – Oh no, time to get up already! Don’t feel good, was awake the whole night, have a headache and no energy to move. Snooze.

6:54am: the alarm goes off again – first attempt to get up. Unsuccessful. Snooze.

7:03am: the alarm goes off once again – second attempt. Feeling light-headed. I ask S.: "Do you think I can stay at home today, I don’t feel 100%?" Answer: "Of course, listen to your body and don’t feel guilty." I move closer to S. to cuddle up.

7:15am: feeling guilty I get up and have breakfast. Still not feeling well. Back to bed.

8:00am: up again. I decide I should make an effort. I’m worried my boss and colleagues will think I am lazy. “Are you crazy, your wellbeing comes first!” says S.. I get annoyed but I know he is right. Still, in a spirit of contradiction, I try to shower. Damn it, it’s true, I can’t wet the stitches. So I get even crankier. Finally I tell my boss I won’t make it today.

8:30am: back in bed feeling moody, sad and not well.

10:00am: managed to sleep one hour. Listening to Antena 3 and reading in bed.

I still think I should be in the office, not in bed. So much for wanting to get back to normal. Life sucks!