Side effects

The side effects I am experiencing are quite mild, but all together rather unpleasant.
Before the chemo when the nurse was going through all possible side effects and how to manage them I started panicking and felt like crying. It sounded horrible and the only thing I could think was: what am I doing here? Why do I have to put myself through this? Fortunately I am one of the lucky ones, unless the side effects get worse after the next session.
The list of possible side effects is long and in some degree I am experiencing them all:
Reduced immunity (so far no infections)
Bruising and bleeding (no bleeding luckily)
Anaemia
Nausea
Tiredness (I should say fatigue or exhaustion)
Hair loss (none up until today and hopefully none what so ever until the end)
Sore mouth
Taste changes
Irritation of the bladder
Loss of appetite
Skin changes
Nail changes
Throbbing ear pain
Heartburn
Headaches
Damage to heart (I hope none)
Infertility (very likely but hard to know yet)
Constipation and diarrhoea (not at the same time obviously!)
Bone pain